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GUYS!! I am so happy! I have fallen back in love with life again! Food tastes better, music sounds more vibrant, the sun’s shining brighter, I’m smiling a bit wider… everything is amazing. I lost my way for a while. Got buried beneath the stress of figuring out our futures and raising a toddler. Not anymore. All I needed was a little perspective. EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY!!

Now I’m leaning towards taking the State Farm job. But who cares?! No matter what path I choose, EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY!

Still no clue which job’s the boys will take. Maybe Alex will stay at home with Autumn this summer while I work. But I promise… no matter what we decide to do- EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY!

After having Autumn something happened to me. I forgot about the little things in life and only focused on the stress of being a young mom. I’ve spent the last three years happy but held back by worrying about everything. In the last week I’ve found my “bliss” again. I’m done worrying over small things because life is too damn short! Autumn will be okay, finances will be okay, school will be okay, we will all be okay. I have faith in God that EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY! And it will- just watch and see.

How do I know everything will be okay? Because my small family has built a life around love. At an early age we have found something that many people spend a lifetime searching for and never find: true happiness. Bliss.

I will come to you guys soon with actual updates. But not today. Today I will play loud music and take Autumn outside.

Love you all!

Dimand Girl

HW: 330

SW: 310

CW: 242

“Music washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life.”- Berthold Auerbach

“When you’re happy like a fool, let it take you over.”- One Republic

“Everything will be okay in the end. If it’s not okay, it’s not the end.”- John Lennon

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Enjoy Every Moment

Whats up guys!? Been missing y’all lately!

Last week I told you guys about my decision between Old Navy and State Farm. I’m still not 100% sure but I’m leaning towards staying at Old Navy. The reason is because if I work at State Farm I will need to take more time off of school. I really don’t want to do that. I’m scared if I keep pushing school off then I will eventually never go back. Old Navy gives me the flexibility to do school full-time while also getting a paycheck (even though it will be much smaller than State Farm’s). I’ll update you guys if anything changes, but I’m definitely leaning towards staying at Old Navy.

So May 17th was Timur’s Birthday. It was a lot of fun!! My sister watched Autumn so we could have some “adult fun” (i.e. say the word shit without apologizing, or have too much wine). We went to the festival of cultures first. It was awesome! There were over 100 countries represented! We walked around, tried different nations’ food/snacks, watched different cultures doing dances, and ate lunch. It was a really good time and I would honestly love to go again next year! After the festival we went to the Holocaust Museum. Not your typical birthday event, but Timur loves history so it wasn’t too depressing for him. We all really enjoyed it and learned a lot. We then had dinner and drinks at Cheesecake Factory, and ended our night walking around Old Orchard mall. We found an empty cabana so we sat under it and enjoyed the perfect weather. It was an amazing day and night!

Autumn is a little sick right now 😦 She has a virus. Her fever got up to 103.5 a couple days ago and I was really worried so I brought her to the doctor just for peace of mind. The doctor said there’s really nothing we can do in the case of a virus and just to give her kids Advil as needed. I’ve been doing that, but the poor thing is so lethargic and sad looking. It’s killing me a little bit.

Bad news. I gained two pounds. Ugh. I’m back to 245. The annoying part is I’ve started to run more again. I haven’t been watching what I eat though. Definitely need to fix that. I really really really need to start water logging again. A couple days ago I realized I had only been drinking 20-30 oz of fluid a day basically all week. No bueno. I’m going to really try to get back to 64 oz a day now.

Here’s for the last, longest, and weirdest update. I’m having a quarter-life-crisis. At least that’s what I’ve been calling it. All I want to do is go out with friends, blast my music, drink, and have fun! On last week’s date night I had a lot of wine at dinner and then we went for a long drive with the windows down and my music blaring. It was amazing! I think a part of it is because I feel renewed in life. And also because even though I was always pretty confident, my confidence went from like 85% to 105%. I have never felt more confident in my whole life! I talked to a bunch of my friends in the WLS community and a bunch of them have gone through this too, so it’s pretty normal. As I type this, I’m currently blasting “Talking Body” by Tove Lo on my iPod. Hopefully this won’t last forever because I’ve got to get back in the mindset of working hard instead of just playing hard. Wish me luck!

Happiness, love, and FUN to all!

Dimand Girl

HW: 330

SW: 310

CW: 245

“When you have confidence, you can have a lot of fun. And when you have fun, you can do amazing things.”- Joe Namath

“People will stare. Make it worth their while.”- Harry Winston

“Enjoy every moment.”- Unknown

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^^My poor sick girl. The bottom right is at the doctor’s office.^^

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^^Timur’s Fun Birthday!!^^

Superhero is Just Another Name for Mom

Hey guys! Been super busy lately but wanted to come update y’all anyways! I have some pics this time too.

First I wanted to say Happy Mother’s Day to all of you beautiful mama’s out there who bust your butt to give your child/ren an amazing life! YOU are the real superheroes in this world!

My Mother’s Day was surprisingly amazing! I say surprisingly because every year for the last few years I have been pretty sad on Mother’s Day. Just missing my mom and kind of feeling mopey. This year, instead of grieving my losses I focused completely on my gains. We woke up and Alex gave me gifts, and a card that he and Autumn made for me. Then we picked up Sophia and went to Hawthorne Mall. We walked around, ate lunch, shopped, and let Autumn make friends in the kids’ play area. Then we visited Mel. In case I didn’t tell y’all before, Mel had a cyst that needed to be removed. Now she’s in a physical rehabilitation center so they can help her wrap the wound properly. She’s pretty miserable, but we try to visit her as often as possible. After visiting Mel we dropped Sophia, Timur, and Autumn at home and Alex and I went on a dinner date. It was an amazing night and I didn’t even feel sad once!

A couple days before that, Alex and I discovered a store called Five Below. Everything in the store is $5 or less (hence the name). We bought a bunch of activity things (four bow and arrows, four badminton rackets, etc). Timur’s dad went to Iowa and said it was okay if we did laundry at his house. While we were doing laundry we had Sophia and Dinah over and we had an activity day. Timur’s dad has a huge open yard so it was perfect for it! It was such a beautiful and fun day! We’re going to buy more activity stuff now (tennis rackets, soccer balls, etc) so we can have more activity days. We have a lot of upcoming plans for the beautiful weather!

Yesterday I got hired at State Farm Insurance as the office manager. It pays much more (obviously) then Old Navy, but it’s also 32 hours a week, which is more hours then I’ve ever worked. There’s upsides and downsides to both jobs. I’m going to write my list below, and I could definitely use any advice y’all are willing to give.

  • The pro’s of State Farm: more money, looks better on my resume, walking distance from my house.
  • The con’s of State Farm: not sure how flexible they will be with my school schedule, 32 hours is a lot for me (I’ll be missing my family even more), and it’s a sitting job so I won’t get in my cardio.
  • The pro’s of Old Navy: walking all day so I get in a “free” workout without having to go to the gym or run, extremely flexible schedule (lots of free time to be with my family), very easy job, will work around my school schedule.
  • The con’s of Old Navy: night hours, some weeks (like this week) I only got 12 hours, not great pay, looks decent on my resume (not as good as “office manager”).

I’m still continuing to look for new apartment/houses/condo rentals. We’ve decided that unless we find a place that we absolutely love, we’re going to stay in our place another year. Even though it’s smaller then we’d like, Autumn has a bunch of friends that live in this complex, we’re walking distance to so many awesome places (including the train), and we are just very happy here. So I’m looking for places, but not all that hard. More like sitting back and thinking “if it’s meant to be, it will be.”

On a more personal note, I have always been a pretty confident person but lately my confidence went from like 80% to 95%. I feel amazing about myself. I’ve been taking a lot more selfie’s which normally I hate, but I’m not doing it to be vein. I’m just so shocked and proud of myself. I look fantastic, I feel fantastic, and I see no reason why that shouldn’t be celebrated. I always loved life, but now I appreciate it more then ever. The sun shines a little brighter, the air smells a little fresher, life is just getting better and better!

Love, happiness, and health to all,

Dimand Girl

HW: 330

SW: 310

CW: 243

“You are free to choose, but you are not free from the consequence of your choice.”- Unknown

“Fall in love with the process, and the results will come.”- Eric Thomas

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^^Mother’s Day!!^^

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^^First time visiting Mel. She was in good spirits! We had fruit together and laughed for hours!^^

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^^Our first outdoor activity day!^^

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^^Our day out yesterday!^^

Indefinitely, For Now.

Very happy to have some time to update y’all! I’ve been pretty good lately at posting here weekly, but since I started working it’s a little harder to find the time. I promise I’ll always make a solid effort to post here either weekly or at least bi-weekly. It’s actually kind of funny because when I go two or more weeks without posting I get some “hate mail” (people being like “Why did you stop posting? it’s so annoying how bloggers always quit after a year”- that was a real email I got). Just so you all know, I have no intention of ever “quitting”. As far as I’m concerned, I could blog for the rest of my life. I love it. If times get busy and I go a month without posting (or even two: gasp), I will still be back.

Speaking of feedback, I probably got 50 or more emails and facebook messages from y’all last week! I applied to most (maybe even all) of them already! Thank you guys so much for all of the support, advice, feedback, and well-wishes. I am 100% convinced that I wouldn’t have loved blogging this much without all of the amazing feedback from y’all.

On to the next topic.

I’m about 90% sure I’ve made my final decision about school. I think I’m going to pursue my Bachelor’s (and eventually Master’s) in Business Administration. I’m either going to narrow in on marketing, management, accounting, or something along those lines (because I think it’s more helpful when finding jobs to have a more specific field). Full disclosure: I could change my mind again. I was telling my sister on the phone the other day that I think I’m cursed in life because I’m not really all that passionate about anything. Take my husband for example. He has known since childhood that he wanted to teach history. History (especially European history) is his passion. I never really had that. My passions in life are food, friends, and family. I like to write, but I’m not that passionate about it. Which is why, when it comes to my career, I’m extremely indecisive. I’m sticking to this decision, indefinitely, for now (see what I did there?!).

I’ve been enjoying my job more and more. I’ve really learned my way around the store which makes it a lot easier to put clothes away. My least favorite job is the fitting room. People make huge messes in that area and you have to go in, clean the room, re-hang the clothes, and run around the store putting each item away. It’s annoying. And when we’re busy, it’s really annoying. My favorite job is cleaning and cash register. I like to refold the clothes and tidy up the displays. And my favorite place to clean in the store is kid, toddler, and baby. The reason I prefer that section is a.) I know my way around there the most, and b.) when I do the women’s section I’m tempted to buy everything.

It’s still hard getting used to being away from my family more. I miss the little things- cooking dinner, kissing Autumn goodnight, etc. And I’m still struggling with planning out my calories, protein, and carbs each day and sticking to it. This week I work four days in a row and I’m pretty exhausted by now. They’re all 4-6 hour shifts. My feet don’t hurt at all, but my back hurts all the time. Thank goodness I have an amazing hubby who gives me massages almost every night (love you babe!). I’m very excited for a couple days off. The upside to working a lot is I get in “free” exercise. Basically I am getting paid to do cardio. It’s cool because on work days I don’t have to exercise after or before work. I get in between 2.5-3 miles of walking a day, but there’s also a lot of lifting and bending.

Hope you guys have an amazing week and weekend!

Dimand Girl

HW: 330

SW: 310

CW: 245

“All things are difficult before they are easy.”- Thomas Fuller