Hey y’all! Got a small break in my hectic week to catch y’all up. There’s a lot going on right now, some good and some bad. My life’s a little up-in-the-air at the moment and I’m busy trying to make sense of the mess.
I started Monday full time at State Farm Insurance (as the office manager). I am working Monday thru Friday from 9-5. And I work at Old Navy on the weekends. I will be quitting one of the jobs, but I’m not sure which one yet. State Farm looks amazing on my resume, much better pay, and is great experience (in three days I feel like I’ve learned so much). But Old Navy offers flexibility (which allows me to still have a social life) and is also really good experience. It’s very tough. Sometimes I feel like it’s coming down to a battle of money versus happiness. I’m not as happy at State Farm because I’ve lost any sense of a life like I had before. I can’t see friends, barely get to visit my dad, and by the time I get home I feel too tired to play with Autumn and hang out with my family. I usually get home, plop myself down on the bed or couch, take a nap, wake up and eat dinner, and then it’s time to get Autumn in bed. It kind of sucks.
This is the part where everyone tells me: “but this is what adulthood really is!” And this is the part where I respond saying… “then I’m not sure I want it yet.” I’ve been thinking a lot about that lately. A huge piece of me thinks Old Navy is the best bet because that way I can go to school full time, still have a job, and still have time to have a social life. It’s all completely hectic right now. I will keep y’all updated on my decision.
Another downside to State Farm is the hectic schedule has caused me to not watch what I eat. Not to mention I haven’t run/exercised at all (another perk of Old Navy=free cardio!). I’ve gained 2-3 pounds this week since I started working. I don’t cook anymore because by the time I get home at 5:15 I’m too exhausted to cook. And I love Alex to death but he is not exactly the cook in the family (love you babe!). So lately I’ve been eating processed dinners (Hungry Man frozen meals), frozen chicken nuggets…. junk food crap. And I feel like crap because of it: bloated, fatigued, and uncomfortable. Alex and Timur said eventually I’ll get used to this schedule and I won’t be so tired so I’ll be able to meal prep/cook again. But I’m not 100% sure that’s true. To be continued…
Memorial Day weekend was awesome! We went to a beautiful town in Wisconsin (GO PACKERS!!) called Lake Geneva. We ate lunch right on the lake, walked around the town, went shopping, etc. It was an amazing day! Also, Alex and I had a date night and went to dinner then walked around a carnival. We went on the Ferris wheel and the tilt a whirl. I laughed so hard on the tilt a whirl I thought I would die of hyperventilation! We had such a great time! And another NSV (non-scale victory): the bar came down to both of our waists! Side note- as if I don’t say it enough already- I love my husband so freakin much!
Before I end this post I just want to say something. In regards to my journey, the most important thing is my health. I have a come a long way, but I also still have a long way to go. It will be a forever battle… but I will win. I promise that even when I have tough streaks, I won’t give up.
Peace and sanity to all!
“I already know what giving up feels like. I want to see what happens if I don’t.”- Neila Rey
^^Football season will be back soon y’all!!^^
^^FaceTiming with my family on my break at Old Navy! I always have an extra pep in my step after seeing them!^^
^^I recreated the photo (same shirt and all)! I still have a long way to go, but jeeeeeeeez…. I have to give myself some more credit!^^
^^Memorial Day Weekend!!^^